Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. Psalm 51: 1-2
In this Psalm David is crying out for forgiveness to the Lord. He really messed up, committed several whoppers, including adultery and murder. (To read about his transgressions, 2 Samuel 11 and 12 is quite a story). David had done much and suffered much, finally admitting to his sin, accepting responsibility for his wrong doings, and truly repenting to God, asking for mercy and appealing to his loving kindness.
How many times have I read, and sang, this Psalm. Have I really listened to it? Not really. In looking at it in a different context it’s been enlightening. I find it’s easy to think, oh, I’ve messed up, I shouldn’t have done that, praying and asking God for forgiveness. So why don’t I always feel better, forgiven, cleansed from my sins? Why do I still feel this sickness in my gut, the nagging thoughts of the sin committed creeping into my thoughts? Have I simply been venting about my sin and not truly repenting? Have I trusted God and his mercy to wash away my sins, erase them from any written document? Have I truly repented?
May we seek God’s mercy and loving kindness, which is larger than life!
Prayer: Dear God, help me to be more like David, fully accepting my sins, truly repenting and believing in your mercy and unfailing love. Create in me a pure heart and renew a right spirit within me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit. In Jesus’ name, Amen